Rain caught me in the middle

of my walk to the studio this morning. I felt like as long as my feet didn't get wet I'd be okay

and it was. It caught me just as I was hoping that there would be more rain so that I'd be certain the roots of the cucumbers and peppers and tomatoes in the backyard would get soaked today.

Rain water is the best rain for them. Guides them in ways a watering can can't. This is not me being lazy auntie, its spiritual mother to them. Trying to focus here is like...............

Life right now is like.............

no food no water is she alright?

not rude just bothered

that doesn't make it right

wanted to float in on a song to carry

me the day long

instead of swaying to the beat

and remembering the LiLongs

3 years ago I was in Pittsburgh, just like now

finished school and went right back into work

work don't end but

I do

exhale

EXHALE

EXHALE EXHALE

til there's nothing left, then start over /

with that

a fly landed on my wrist

I still believe they bring me calm

remind me to stop worrying

the flies on Jaide's poop gross me out

tell me to stop worrying about

gross shit

that has nothing to do with me

but I can't look away