Intentional Ways That I Love Myself: Facing Fears

I emerged from the arms of my love and walked out onto Broadway Avenue, but not before stopping at the door with Eszquire's arms wrapped around my waist and chest holding onto his arms we prayed and gave thanks to God for bringing us together in life, for His love and for His guidance. Being Poor sucks and I do not claim it. The bill collectors, and credit score notices and overdrawn notifications put a damper on this, but when I go onto into the world I claim and name abundance. God has richly blessed me.

Broadway Avenue was a blur, I went down the street and then I came back up the street to get something from the convenience store, forgetting I was going to the GetGo to get a caffeinated frozen latte to carry me into the night session. I decided to duck back into the studio for Things I've Withheld by Kei Miller. Eszquire didn't hear me when I came in, so I called out. That startled him some, but he

A spray of sound, or a popping. It seemed to be going off everywhere. I remembered my walk to the foot of the hill getting the last seconds of sun. I remembered how steady and surrendered I could be. It only made sense to walk as relaxed as I could. If anything were to happen, I'd need all my senses to process it. That openness beat me upside the head walking in the night with fireworks popping off left and right. As I walked up valley street a white truck squealed and reved towards me. My chest became tight. I ducked into an alley,held my breathe and waited for it the pass by. When I came out of the alley I considered turning around and walking on Broadway, because its more lit , the street behind the bleachers gets some indirect light from the field lights, but there are dark patches too. I walked down this street, releasing my butt and my back from their bind.

On Friday Night Poetry Vibesz I felt very comfortable moving from behind the bar as a host to singing, to dancing. It was fun. It was like a movie and one of those moments. We left two hours after we said we would wrap. For a few firsts. Hell yea. over and over again

to see that joy

yes I'm in my element

and I see you are in yours too

dancing with me in the middle of this space

singing to the lyrics on the screen

and I see you are in your too

roller skating on the laminate

throwing your head back as you laugh

holding the bass over your lap

professing your aversion to covers as you meditate on

'no ordinary love" as you share this song here because there are some people who haven't heard it yet

as I consider retiring heaven

until I forget that there are some people who haven't heard it yet

as you move from the turntables, to the drums, the keys and the organ

as I remember this is what started it all

as I see this investment grow to a lounge where people have a few firsts

and be in our element

and see

and be seen

Intimacy